March 9, 2016
It’s 11:08 pm on a Wednesday night. The only thought going through my head is how happy I am with how life has been going recently. What I hope to achieve, through starting this blog with you, is a bit of insight on how I decided to change my outlook on life, and my thoughts on a few of the other happening that are going on in my world. My stories include some tips on how I try to keep a positive mentality, and hopefully I can inspire others as well. Even when things get tough, a little self confidence can go a long way.
My greatest accomplishment has been my journey to achieving a positive mentality. This life choice has really helped me for the past six months, after I went through a really rough patch in my life about eight months ago. This struggle lead to issues with me and a few special people in my life. I struggled to admit to myself that I went through serious affliction, and that made it hard for me to reach out to my loved ones and get help. When I decided it was time for me to confront this issue, not everyone understood. This left me in ruins. I never felt so neglected.
That’s when I knew I needed a change in my life. I started reading self-help books and watching YouTube videos about the power of turning my life from one of despair to a life that would lead me to the clear path of peace. The transition was hard. I joined groups on Facebook that were filled with people willing to help one another reach their goals of self-realization. I reached out to some of the inspiring people from YouTube and told them that I kept pushing forward because of the content they put out on the web. I write in a journal almost every day. I remind myself of all the things I love about myself. I’ll record moments in my day that made me smile or even tips on how to properly handle certain issues that may arise again. A few months later, with support from family and some friends I met online, I figured it out.
I’ve established a special mindset, one that has helped me heal. I created it just for myself. I first have to wake up with a smile on my face. I plan my day out exactly how I want it to be. I get ready and do my makeup just how I like it and get as nicely dressed as I can. I put my headphones in and I’m ready to head out into the day. I put on my favorite playlists that include some Jake Owen, Wild Child, Paramore, Local Natives, and so many others. I go through the day, making each decision based on how it will affect me. The goal of decision making is to ensure that you’ll be grateful you made that choice. No regrets. That’s one of the most important tips I have. Make a decision because you want to, not because others tell you to. That one decision could change your whole life, so make sure you do what you want to do. After I finish my classes, I do my homework. I usually sit in my Campus Center or if the weather is nice, I’ll spend hours outside doing work. Once all of that is done, I’ll go back to my room. I’ll write, listen to music, watch YouTube videos, look at pictures/videos of dogs, talk on the phone with my family, or just catch up on my t.v shows. This is exactly how I enjoy spending my days. Simple. It makes me happy.
I noticed a huge improvement in myself. It took a little longer than I expected but in the end it was totally worth it. Anyone can change their life if they put their mind to it. At this point, I felt more like the Caroline I’ve been looking for. She was finally here and she was ready to take on the world. Which leads me to the next milestone in my life; switching out of my college major.
I’ve been a math major for about two years now, and I’ve come to the realization that it is not the path that I wanted to be on. Math was my favorite subject in high school, but once I started taking classes at the college level, I didn’t feel the same about it anymore. I knew I had to make a change so I could graduate with a degree in something that I love. I have been researching for weeks and I finally came across a major that is the epitome of my dreams. The new major would be the study of Natural Resources Conservation. I would learn about how to conserve, protect, and manage wildlife populations. This is exactly the description of the major I’ve been hoping to find, something that combines many of the things that I hold close to my heart. Even my family and friends think it is the perfect fit for me. I get chills just thinking about how excited I was when researching this new major. I’m thankful I went through this switch because it is important to experience serious changes before choosing the right path. Positivity helped me come to the conclusions that I can and I will get through anything.
This journey has been eye-opening for me. I hope that one day I can spread my ideas with everyone, whether it’s through the web or in person. Everyone has the strength to change their life, if they choose to do so. A quote by Mod Sun, the man that showed me what happiness is all about, once said, “the best part about how I feel is that just because I have this positive mentality doesn’t necessarily mean that I will be happy all the time. It means that I can take all the bad that life might throw at me and make it through just fine.” I reflect on this idea daily to remind myself that I am on the right path, and that I am happy. My optimism is not foolish, it is fueled by an inner strength and the burning desire to seize this one life I’ve been so thoughtfully given.
– Caroline Abigail