Let me recap the week. Monday started and ended with me studying for math and statistics at any chance I could get. On Tuesday, I had a sociology exam, which I felt good about! Then after the exam I proceeded to do more homework and studying. Wednesday was probably the most stressful day of the week for me. I had a math exam, and I knew that I had to do really well on this exam to keep my grades up. There’s a feeling that takes over my body when I know I have a math exam or quiz that week. I become so nervous and stressed to the point where I become unmotivated. I picture myself opening up the exam, and even after hours of studying, I’ll somehow not know the answers to any of the questions. There is a part of me that is exhausted by how much unnecessary stress I put on myself. I tell myself that this is not the right way to go about preparing to take these exams, but I become fearful of failure.
I studied for the majority of Monday and Tuesday night so I felt prepared. I try to keep myself level headed and tell myself that this is just one exam out of the many to come. Exam time came and after the two hours, I felt confident in my work when walking out of the exam room. Having an optimistic outlook after an exam is what helps me relieve my stress and move on to my next task.
If there’s one thing that makes me feel assured with my exams, it’s my mom. We talk on the phone after almost every exam, and she knows just what to say to remind me that I am doing the best I can, and that’s all I can do. I will be forever grateful for how much she helps me through the times when I’m unsure of my decisions. She never fails to reassure me that what I’m doing is what is right for me.
I’m currently writing this post with a huge smile on my face. Today was one of those days that I will look back on and remember that my life changed for the better. I had my meeting to officially switch my major over to Natural Resources Conservation! I am so relieved that I was able to start on this journey towards a degree based on things that I truly love and care about. I knew for months that I had to make a change in my life in order to shape who I am, and I am beyond happy that I made this decision. Even though I have to finish this semester with these difficult math classes, I have something to look forward to next semester. My week might have been extremely stressful, but I can’t help but smile at all the amazing things to come. I had to conquer a few rough months just to finally achieve my end goal. I will forever let this day remind me that I do have the power to make this life all that I want it to be.
A positive reminder quote by Mod Sun : “Yesterday’s shadows can’t spoil today’s sunshine.”